She is looking for it

“I can never be who I was. I can simply watch her with sympathy, understanding, and some measure of awe. There she goes, backpack on, headed for the subway or the airport. She did her best with her eyeliner. She learned a new word she wants to try out on you. She is ambling along. She is looking for it.” 

Taken from Lena Dunham's book 'Not That Kind of Girl: A Young Woman Tells You What She's "Learned"'.  I got a lot more out of that book than I was expecting, this being is one of my favourite snippets from it.  No, I can never be who I was, but I am looking for it.  Here's to 2015  :)